dreams-so-bleak

Is there a reason for me? Why am I who I am? Was that how its supposed to be or did I not take the correct road and end up here. Lost and alone... no where to run because i've burried myself so deep in the labarynth of doors. I can see the moon but cant find the stars. What stars? When i dream they lead me astray. When im awake I feel like im alseep. But I cant be asleep because there are no doors, just people walking by... never saying hi, good day, or good night. Just walking deeper and deeper down the paths they choose... right or wrong I dont know because knowone ever stops to say hello. blah.

Im so tierd of the games, Im sure most are but it gets old so fast. Dont get me wrong  I really do enjoy getting to know new people and what not but I hate it when it turns out to be nothing... expecially after how hard I have fallen for them. All the vibes they give off, all the signs, the flirting. Is all of this a tease?, or is it for real? I've asked and got answers from many people I have dated before and always get different answers. But then they always say, "Girls say the opposite of what they mean"... like me pretending not to want you means I want you. Its bullshit in my eyes because if you really want to get to know someone why not

in times we trust we see flaws the hearts of the artists traped incaged orchids bloom and birds sing the lives we lost reborn virgins shes bleed to much shes lived to little the lives we trust we see flaws